OurWorld.com

I've decided to start writing down my thoughts on certain subjects again. It has usually been expectations towards people, the term "normal", my past, my lack of hope for the future and so forth. But this time, what's mostly on my mind, is ourWorld

I've always taken responsibility very seriously, and if anyone trusted me with something, I would never let them down. And I'm always determined to excel in whatever I'm doing. Right now, I'm a volunteer for ourWorld. Even before I became a volunteer, I was a regular player. I played a lot, I bought a lot of gems (ourWorld currency) and was in generel very active. For some reason, this game captured me. Therefore I started asking questions, if there was something I didn't understand (I always wanted to know how everything worked so I could understand it better). Unfortunately, I think I became TOO involved in this game. I wrote to ourWorld a lot, and even though I was just trying to help, I think I was a wee bit annoying (and still am). Truth is, I put a lot into this game. I do my best to help new players, make sure the ourWorld forum is in order, and that everyone in the game follows the Code of Conduct (the rules of ourWorld). I was recently chosen to be a moderator, and I was extatic. That way I could do more to help, by keeping the forum tidy. Some people love me for it, and some people hate me for it, but it's impossible to please everyone. I just do what I think is right.

ourWorld update frequently. Usually the updates add more features, but in the last update, they made a change that made the ourWorld players explode in fury. In ourWorld, you can gift other people, using gems (which cost money), but there are also 10 gem codes released once a week, and people would make several, and sometimes 100's of "fake accounts", put in those gem codes, and buy gifts for their real account. That way, they would get a lot of stuff for free, that would've costed a lot of money.

Of course, this robbed ourWorld of THEIR money, so they put a stop to it. People can't see the point, cuz they only think about themselves. Now they can't cheat, where does ourWorld come off, preventing people from stealing their money. I myself, had some n00b accounts I used for gifting, but difference is that I'm objective. Yes, it was bad for ME that they removed it, but it's not all about me is it. More people should think that way. If you walked on the same street everyday, and saw the same guy. Everyday you gave that man 10 dollars, for free, to be kind. Cuz he couldn't afford anything. And everytime you gave him those 10 dollars, he would pick your pocket for 2 more dollars.

Would that be fair? Is that really different than what all the ourWorld players, including me, have been doing? I think not.

As I wrote, the fact that I've been so involved in ourWorld, wanting to help, wanting to make a difference, has caused me to be a bother for the ourWorld staff. They haven't told me this directly, but I wish they would. I always prefer truth before curtesy. Sometimes I just feel lost. Maybe because I take my position as a volunteer very seriously (because, as I stated, that I won't let anyone down), and therefore I need to communicate with whoever is in charge, to tell me what exactly to do, so I can optimize my performance, and for me to know if I'm on the right track or not. Otherwise, I'm kinda just shooting all over, hoping to hit something eventually.

I guess you can say that I see Wylde as my mentor. Well... More of an inspiration, because he can answer the same questions again and again, and he still answer the questions detailed, and in a polite tone. I don't have any specific wish in my life, just that I want to feel that there's just ONE thing, that I'm good at. That I'm confident of, that I KNOW I'm better at than average. And what that happens to be, doesn't really matter. On the net, I can seem pretty serious, but that's just if it's serious matters. In real, I have to try my hardest to be serious, because I joke around with everything. Which is best? I don't know.